I’ve been really stirred into thought and self-examination by a post I’ve read from the blog of one my professors from TBS, Pastor Paul Martin. 

In the post “How Are You Feeling About Jesus?” he asks the listeners (readers) to really consider what they experience by being in contact with Jesus?  Not just what you know about Jesus, but what emotions and reactions do you have to the King of Glory?  What effects does your relationship with Jesus have on your life - not just in the past, but now?  How does the innermost parts of your soul experience Him?

I must confess that this blog post has been convicting for me!  For theology students it’s so easy to study the truths about Jesus day-in and day-out without the soul being stirred - and I’ve been there. 

A few quotes stood out for me, one being this one:

In fact, I will be very bold and suggest that there is something spiritually off with us if the general pattern of our experience is not one of being regularly startled or humbled or warmed or shocked or challenged or rebuked or intrigued or enflamed or humbled or angered or broken by our contact with Jesus Christ.

and this one…

Is something happening to you? Is your “adoring delight in you Maker and Saviour” growing and expanding and deepening? Are you being affected by Christ? Can you read your theology, study the Greek of John 1, consider the lives of saints from years past and simply stay the same?

Pastor Martin is right… Jesus is Someone for whom apathy is a completely inadequate response, since as the Bible shows… everyone who came in contact with Him had a reaction to Him!  Friends, it is possible for a someone to fall into a rut where Christ doesn’t warm his or her heart… and this callousness leaves the soul in a precarious position.  Brothers and sisters, if you’re feeling ‘dry’ or Jesus isn’t having an effect on you, listen well to his words here:

If we are feeling nothing when we think of Jesus, then we must take stock of our heart’s condition. Apathy and indifference to Jesus may very well be your greatest enemies in this world. Somehow brothers, find a way to make all that you do to His glory. Somehow, find a way to enjoy Him in the midst of what looks to be drudgery and work. Pray Psalm 63 until you can say every word of that most precious Psalm as your own. He satisfies, brothers… and nothing else does. He is so worth losing all to gain. Make your life one of worship and delight in your Saviour.

I pray that these words will give you some food for thought and food for your soul.